I wrote this the other day when I was missing Christian, and I’m pretty sure all military significant others can relate.
This is the life I chose when I decided to stand by you…I thought I knew how hard it would be, I thought I was prepared…but until I actually started living it, and breathing it, that’s when I really knew, and even after realizing it…here I am and here I’ll stay. It’s like a whole nother life. My love for you is always present, but living life 
away from you is the most difficult thing. I have a completely different outlook on the pledge of allegiance, listening to the national anthem or just looking at a U.S. flag, I feel so proud to know that you are working so hard, selflessly and honorably to keep, not only the ones you love, but also people you’ve never even met, safe. When people ask me how I do it, I don’t know how to fully express to them what I’m feeling. All I know is that when you love someone, you will do and go through anything for them, even if means being away from them. Even if it means staying up all night wondering if he’s okay. Even if it means going to bed alone every night or having an overarching feeling of yearning for him at all times. Even when you do things to distract yourself, the fact that he’s not there is always on your mind, and no matter how many people are around you, you feel alone without him. When something bad happens…you have to be strong and hold it in because he’s not there to comfort you. Or when something really good happens, your excitement diminishes when you realize that the only person who matters isn’t there to know about it. What’s getting me through all of this is knowing that it will all be worth it when I get to see you again, when I finally get to hold you and tell you face to face how much I love you. The biggest part of my life is missing when you’re not with me, and I will wait patiently and impatiently to get it back. So when people ask me how I do it…I just tell them ‘love’.
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